Why Crystals?

A crystal power dial 

Crystals are a major part of my life for anyone that knows me. I have tons scattered around my house. I am constantly wearing at least one crystal on me. I make crystal jewellery for others to enjoy. I use them to not only heal myself but also others. But because I am constantly surrounded by crystals I do often get asked ( by friends, strangers, family, etc); why crystals, what is it about them, what do they give you, do you truly believe in the power of them? And my answer YES, yes I do!!

My very first memories of loving rocks, stones and crystals comes from my childhood. Growing up my Dad used to work in the coulees of Southern Alberta in a gravel pit. Now here is a tidbit for those of you not familiar with that area...it is literally loaded with magical stones, rocks, and crystals and is also home for a lot ancient healers! Anyway, my Dad would always take home the cool ones, the most beautiful, sometimes even fossils! He would set them up around the house and tell us about them and what they were, or where he had found them.  I would always think to myself, how cool would it be to work with this beautiful things, like seriously?!

 I would always think to myself, how cool would it be to work with this beautiful things, like seriously?!


My second major memory come from the first time I was actually gifted my very first healing stone, from my Aunt none the less. She was all about natural healing, energy healing, and ancient healing practices. For one of my younger birthday's, I am clueless to which one, she gifted me a rose quartz pendant necklace. I was so in love with it, I hardly went a day without wearing it and the few times it broke I would always get my Mom or Dad to fix it so I could continue to wear it! I felt like it was a part of me, like the stone its self was giving me everything I needed and I was giving it everything it needed back.

Absorbing energy in a pool of crystals

So in hindsight I was always in love with these beautiful gifts that Mother Earth has blessed us with! Now the big question...Why? And do I truly believe in their gifts?


I was always in love with these beautiful gifts


My belief and love with crystals I do believe comes from two things. The first is that through a past life regression, I learned that I was a faerie, actually a pixie to be exact, in a past life! These creatures are very in tune and in love with Mother Earth and all her gifts, they are gifted with the job of helping to take care of this beautiful world and teach us more about the gifts of it. Faeries and pixies are very drawn especially to crystals and stones as they believe that they are gifts from Gaia (the Mother Earth Goddess) for all the work and help that they do. All that being said, me being naturally drawn to them comes from this past life that I have carried forth. I actually must add it was carried forth to this life in such a way that before I even started studying or learning names or properties of crystals I actually knew them; there was instances where I would be in a store with a friend and I would know exactly which stone she needed without actually knowing anything about the stone or even the name of it before I walked in.


There was instances where I would be in a store with a friend and I would know exactly which stone she needed without actually knowing anything about the stone or even the name of it before I walked in

My first piece of Kyanite

The second reason why is because I have been very very blessed to feel and see what they can do, how they heal, and the amazing energy that they possesses. About three and a half years ago I was coming out of very very dark place, think depression, lost love (a soul sister and the man I thought was the one at the time), a major shake up in friends, career changers, and lost hope. It was at this time a friend of mine had been made a custom crystal necklace by a beautiful amazing healer, and now today I must say friend, Beth Katherine, or back then she was known as Waves of Fire. I was so drawn to this healer and all the beautiful stones she was working with that I decided to try it out. I met with Beth for an interview, or guidance session, and then in two weeks was gifted with a very beautiful Kyanite healing necklace. I will not go into specifics of Kyanite but basically this necklace was made to help me listen to my heart, heal my hearts pain and ache, see both sides of a situation, and connect with my true intuition.


I would also like to note that a few days before I recieved my necklace I went to a crystal store with a friend looking for something for myself, which I never did back then, and my eye and heart first came accross a lovely piece of Kyanite that I still have to this day!

The moment I put on this amazing Kyanite necklace I remember feeling this surge of energy, this rush, and the knowing that this was the moment my life was going to change, and it did. I can literally pinpoint the change in my life, and how I have gotten to this point to that moment and that point in time.


A surge of energy, this rush, and the knowing that this was the moment my life was going to change

Vitton healing on Amethyst

Now do not get me wrong I do believe that one has to still do some work, it is not like a crystal is merely going to come into your life, your going to sit back, and everything will magically be better. What I do believe is that these amazing beautiful, powerful stones have the ability to spark something with in us, align with our chakras and start the first stages of healing. I believe that they make us want to do the things to in our life, feel things, and just make it different than what it is. And yepperz sometimes I do believe that they do just magically fix things, I have a little piece of benoite that if I have a headache I just literally place it on and my headache is gone. I have also seen my Prince Vitton using my crystals when he is feeling ill, like we took him to the pet emergency ill, and he placed his little head on one of my amethysts and was acting more like himself afterwards.


Powerful stones have the ability to spark something with in us, align with our chakras and start the first stages of healing


Crystals have the ability to do so much wonder, good, and healing in our lives. They are literally the gifts that the earth have given us to help us heal, learn, and change. This is a huge reason why I work with them. The reason why I am studying to become a Certified Crystal Healer. The reason why I am make beautiful crystal jewellery, both custom and pre made stuff sold on the link here. The reason why I never leave home with out at least one of my friends (yes to me they are my friends) by my side. The reason why I want to share the gifts and healing that they possess with the world around me. Crystal healing and the power of the crystals are what got me here today, in one piece, and enjoying more love and healing than I could ever imagine.

One of the beauties I created

Yes, yes I believe in the healing, the power, the magnificence, the beauty, and the over all change that these beautiful beings have.

xoxo my lovelies! 

Get Grounding the Autumn Way

Not so sad face having to wear warmer clothes!

So the last couple of weeks have been cool and rainy here in Vancouver! I must say it has officially reached the season of autumn here, which I am totally fine with because it is my favourite of all the seasons! I just love to wear cozy clothes, scarves, boots, hats, make soups and chili's, and also I get to happily up my consumption of tea <3 Sooo in honour of this lovely season I would like to share with you a couple of my FAVOURITE recipes for this time of year!

With autumn being here, and winter coming soon after, I start to want food with more substance, that is nice and hot, and also comforting! I have also really been trying to make sure what I am putting in my body is benefiting it in many ways. I want to make sure that my food is nourishing my body, my soul, and helping out all my chakras!

Autumn colour flowers <3

 Eating for your chakras is actually a very important thing that a lot of people do not think about. When we eat for our chakra's its not only helping us to balance them but can also improve their functionality, and their power. A lot of people whom do chakra work (I believe everyone should do some sort of chakra work) usually only focus on the energy work of cleansing, repairing, and opening them. When we combine eating for our chakra's and doing energy work with them we help them to work at their optimal level.

One way to make sure that you are eating for your chakra's is to eat what is in season! This not only helps your chakras ground into the coming weather and changes in your body; but also is better for the environment, and your wallet; eating in season is more economical and cheaper than eating out of season. We can also eat for our chakras in another way; by colour. If you are trying to work on a particular chakra then eating fruits, veggies, natural organic meats, and dairy that are associated with the colour of that chakra helps with the work you are doing, it is similar to colour therapy. For example I have been trying to do a lot of work on my root, sacral, and solar plexus chakras....or in other words my lower chakras :) The colours for these are red, orange, and yellow...hmmm kind of like autumn colours....THAT being said I have been including lots red, orange, and yellow foods; think pumpkins, spaghetti squash, peppers, peaches, turmeric, curry and ginger.

Now with all that being said I am now, FINALLY, going to share with you some recipes to ground you into this new season upon us and get you all cozy and comfort fooded up!!!

Pumpkin Sage Soup

This recipe has an amazing food that is not used enough, pumpkins! Pumpkins contain vitamins; A, C, E, B5, along with zinc, magnesium, potassium, and iron. Pumpkins also have a butt load of antioxidants and dietary fibre! Also they are in season right now and so they helps us ground in while benefiting our sacral chakra.

Then there is the sage, oh yeah baby sage! We all have heard of smudging with sage as a way to cleanse, clear and remove toxic energy, BUT did you know that ingesting it does the same thing but to your whole being (think body, mind, and soul). Also it helps to create a calm within your body, probably due to all that gross, icky negativity and toxic energy being gone. It also leads to better brain functioning and has tons of antioxidants in it!

Finished bowl of Pumpkin Sage Soup

Ingredients:
6 lbs weight worth of Sugar Pumpkin or Pumpkin Pie Pumpkin
1 Tbsp of butter or olive oil if going dairy free (I have used both and prefer the olive oil myself)
2 Shallots chopped, or about 3/4 cup
4 cloves of chopped garlic
4 cups of veggie stock
2 Tbsp of fresh chopped sage, and more for garnish
Salt and Pepper to taste

1. Heat your oven to 400 degrees and cut pumpkin or pumpkins in half. Scoop out the seeds and place to roast for 1 hour to 1 1/2 hour, or until soft enough to scoop out the meat. Take out of the oven let cool then scoop out the meat from the inside.
2. In a large pot over medium heat add butter (or oil) and shallots and sauté until clear. Then add in garlic and sauté for another minute. Then add in veggie stock, roasted pumpkin, sage, and s&p. Bring to a boil.
3. After it has reached a boil empty into a blender, food processor, or immersion blend all ingredients together. Heat for another 2-3 minutes afterwards back in pot.
5. Pour into a bowl and enjoy! This soup is really great when you add pumpkin seeds and a little bit of organic sour cream to the top.


Peanut Butter Cup Squares

Peanut Butter Cup Squares fresh out of the freezer!

Now this recipe is just a favourite of mine because at this time of year I really want sweets and this gives me the feeling of having something sweet without the processed sugar and also adding good for you ingredients. This recipe uses organic real maple syrup which is a natural sugar that us actually good for you and also adds a little bit of sweetness. The recipe also calls for raw cacao which is very good for  your body and mind. Raw cacao has the highest amount of magnesium, iron, and zinc in a food known to man kind! Also when raw cacao is ingested it helps with PMS, acne, and headaches! Note I am saying RAW CACAO, not cocoa, or chocolate powder; those things are processed and have lots of the good for things in them TAKEN OUT!

Ingredients By Layer:

Bottom Layer:
3/4 cup ground almonds or almond meal
2 Tbsp raw cacao powder
2 Tbsp real maple syrup
1 Tbsp melted coconut oil
pinch of sea salt

Middle Layer:
1/2 cup natural organic peanut butter
3 Tbsp of real maple syrup
1 Tbsp of melted coconut oil
pinch of sea salt, or to taste for this layer only

Top Layer:
1/4 cup raw cacao powder
1/4 cup melted coconut oil
3 Tbsp of real maple syrup

1. Combine all the bottom layer ingredients in a bowl until it reaches a dough like consistancy. Then press into a loaf pan evenly. Place in freezer to set.
2. Combine middle layer ingredients in a bowl until smooth. Remove pan from freezer and use a spatula to even smooth the middle layer over the bottom one. Place back in freezer.
3. Using a whisk, whisk the top layer ingredients in a bowl. Remove pan from freezer and spread evenly over the top of the two other layers. Then place in freezer for 2 hours.
4. Remove from freezer and cut into squares and eat them all!!! You can store these in the freezer or fridge in an air tight container for 2 weeks, mine have never lasted that long, I have usually eaten them all by the 4th day.


I hope you enjoy these goodies and get your grounding into autumn the healthy way!! Much Love, Light, and Gratitude to all my lovelies!

To New Light, Crystals, and of Course Food

Meditating Ocean Style

You may have noticed I have been doormat for some time now, well for almost 10 months anyway. Truth be told back in January I was unsure as to whether or not I would blog again, but here I am writing another blog post.



Like I do every year, I spent some time in January and December contemplating on what I wanted out of the next year. I thought about things I'd like to achieve, things I wanted to do, and of course things that I needed to let go of. I meditated with my guides and angels and asked them to help guide me to remove things that were no longer serving me and to help me bring the things into my life that would help me on my next step on my journey.



In the weeks before that I had noticed that my writing was slowing down, and I was blogging less. I had no idea why but I just rode it out. Then in January while working on releasing in one of my meditations I heard a clear voice tell me to release my blog from my life, for the moment. I really did not understand this at all, I liked writing, loved my blog, so why. But instead of dwelling on it and questioning it I let it go, I released it.



Then February came and with it a new moon came. I remember this clearly because I was with my roommate talking about the up coming new moon when I saw a jewellery creation store and we decided to go in. Immediately I was in love, so much creativity around me, and there was crystals and stones, and just so much good energy. Of course at this moment my angels whispered to me a little creative idea to create for a dear friend...and thats how it all started.

Celestine Necklace

I started making a few pieces for myself, a few for friends, and then before I knew it I was creating pieces daily and feeling more alive than ever. I had always loved crystals and stones and had played a few times making myself a necklace or two; but never had I ever imagined that I would create something so wonderful out of my love for crystals. In just 10 short months I went from just loving and playing with crystals to creating beautiful pieces of art with them and working on a Certified Crystal Healing Course.



It was not until recently, while I was meditating, that it dawned on me what this all had to do with my writing and blogging...my angels and guides were simply guiding me to make  room for this new crystal adventure by slowing down on the writing. They wanted me to focus my creative energy on something new, something bigger, something that would open me up even more to my life's purpose and journey.

Sunset on Sept 9 Supermoon 

During the last Super Full Moon of the year, September 9, while sitting on a beach watching the sunset with my love I heard a familiar voice speak to me. This voice was that of my guides and they were telling me it was now time to weave all that I have been working on with all that I had been working on  before I stopped writing. Immediately my soul, my heart, and my body handed to me so many images and ideas for more creation. I started just blurting them out to my love while he listened patiently waiting for me to stop, which did not happen for a very long time that night.

Indian Agate Mala 

So here is to new adventures, listening to your angels & guides, yoga, holistic eating, crystal creations, and of course   tons of writing <333

Practicing in the Light of Perfection

Ocean views <3

Perfection is a funny thing in todays society. We all want it, we all crave it, we all need it and we will do anything to achieve it even if it makes us unhappy in the process. We force ourselves to have visions of always having to be bigger, better, and more shiny than what we are. But what happens when leave the idea of perfection behind? Let me tell you how I learned what is truly perfection and how to achieve it just by meditating.

When I was younger I used to strive to be perfect and achieve perfection all the time in everything I did.  I wanted to be the perfect daughter, sister, friend, student, family member, and member of society. All of this want to be perfect and feeling like I had to be perfect followed me through out the majority of my life. When I started dating seriously I wanted to be the best girlfriend ever and would beat myself up if I made even the smallest mistake. During college I wanted to prove I could be the perfect student as well as the perfect employee so I worked 40 plus hours and would not sleep to achieve my 3.8 average.  Then when I started meditating, yoga, and working towards a healthier lifestyle for myself and the strive and want for perfection followed me onwards. I would beat myself up for simple little slips, I would condemn myself saying I was not doing things properly or to the best of my ability, but worst of all I would stop doing things I knew made me a happier healthier person because "I could not achieve them to the extent of perfection". All of this tore me to pieces and literally almost killed me. All the pressure for perfection I put on myself to live such a happy healthy amazing life was the thing that almost put my life in danger of almost not existing at all.

Since then, over the last two years I have worked towards letting go of that need to strive for perfection and controlling my life to be a perfect story. Slowly I started to realize that I did not need to be perfect I just need to be me, no matter how messy or chaotic I was. I was perfection I did not need to search or strive to achieve it. I still struggled with wanting to be more perfect and held on to certain ideals of what perfection was until I was handed what perfection really was.

My Very Own Meditation Corner

I really started to learn how to let go of my ideals of perfection when I started to look at my meditation practice, or what I viewed at the time as a "lack of meditation practice", a few months ago. I was becoming frustrated with myself for my lack of sitting down, and doing my "ritualistic" meditation daily. When I would sit down to do this ritualized meditation practice my thoughts would often interfere, or I would feel chaotic and unfocused. I would often leave meditations feeling more angry or upset than happy and joyful because I did not achieve the perfect mediation.

One day while I was running by the sea I realized how joyous I was feeling and how my run was more meditative than my ritualistic meditation was. I started to take more consideration in how I was feeling during certain activities; baths, walking, yoga, cooking, reading, all the like. Each day it changed for me, somedays sitting in silence was the meditation my body and mind needed, other days it was a relaxing candle lit bath, or a run through nature or by the sea. This is when it hit me; just like other things in life meditation is a practice it is not perfection as it is perfection in its self no matter the meditation.

Candle Lit Bath :D

Meditation is always what it is supposed to be in that exact moment no matter what the activity is that brings it on; whatever it is it is always joyful peace, calm, and love. Meditation is about releasing negative emotion, attachment and energy and how can we do that if we are constantly wanting to achieve a "perfect meditation"? Life is quite the same in the fact that when we focus on doing everything "perfectly", instead of realizing how the things we are doing are quite perfect in themselves, we will never truly live a happy well adjusted life. When we focus on perfection it takes our sight off of the beauty in that moment and takes it to futuristic things that we may never achieve because we cannot see the current beauty. Does that mean I never sit down and take part in my ritualistic meditation practice, no; all it means is that I take that meditation for what it is no matter what happens, because no matter what it is perfect in that moment.

Meditation is always perfection no matter how chatty your mind is, no matter what activity you are doing to achieve that stillness and joyful enlightenment, and no matter where you are. Life is quite the same in the fact that no matter what it is perfect, you just need to look at it for what it truly is and instead of what it is not. Meditation has taught me to let go of perfection almost completely in my life just because meditation is not perfect it can sometimes be a chaotic mess, just like all aspects of life, but it is beautiful just the same. Truth, beauty, and rawness is perfection and everything is truth, beauty and rawness when we open our eyes to it. 

Magical Forest Truths 

The forest may have rotting leaves and logs, have insects that fly and buzz around, animal poop, and mud on the ground but we never condemn it for being anything less than perfect and magical. Now use those same eyes to look at your own life and meditation, because they are both the same as the grungy, dirty forest that we all see as perfection. We all have ability to achieve perfection we just need to change the eyes we view it with.

Releasing Fear for a New Year

Sunsets are the rawest gift our eyes
can perceive <3

So I have some confessions to make to you all, they are real, they are raw and they can no longer be silenced. I have been in a silent mode for the last two almost three months now and it has not been because I haven't had anything to write about, nor was it about not having the urge to write. I wanted to write everyday, I had so much to say, but I was scared and too fearful to do so.

I know I have talked about fear in the past and how it is one of the ego's little tricks that keeps us from following our path, our heart and living in complete happiness. I have talked about ways to not live in fear and ways to listen more to your heart instead of your ego. All that is great, it is wonderful, and let me tell you it does work but sometimes you can do it all over and over again and still feel fearful.

Detox bath of relax-ment

I started feeling very fearful in mid August and at first I was doing it all; I was using mantra's, meditation, eating right, exercise, choosing my heart over my ego, and the fear would go away for a bit but then it would come back. After about 3 weeks of this cycle I started to become frustrated and started to become angry at simple little things. Then shortly after that I just started becoming fearful all the time and listening mostly to my ego. I became very emotional but would not show almost anyone those emotions, and would even often try to block them from myself. I would still meditate at times, do some yoga to help soothe, and occasionally talk to my angels but even with all that I started to avoid my heart and give into my ego more and more.

You are probably wondering what I was avoiding and why I started listening to the fear my ego was feeding me, well to be honest it is  quite simple but also very complicated. I will do my best to explain. I was avoiding change, I was running from my future, and I was pulling on the emergency break of life all out of fear. In the last year and a half I made leaps and bounds in my life. I learned a lot and also accomplished a lot in this time period and it was all bringing me closer and closer to my life purpose and my future. At time the future can be very scary for me, like I am sure it can seem for others as well, most of the time it scares me in a good way and encourages me to move forward...but this time as much as I wanted to move forward I wanted to stay still...see complicated. I knew deep in my heart that to move forward and closer to what was in store for me in my future I would have to leave somethings behind, start doing others I had never done before and let go of some people in my life, and I will admit I was not totally ready to do all of it, or at least thats what my ego kept telling me.

Rainy day, tear filled walks lead to
such amazing things.

During the last new moon I was in a group meditation and the focus was on manifestation and the future. During the meditation I felt great, on top of the world and like nothing was wrong....I had seen short visions of my future and they had been great...so why all the fear? Why was I letting my ego control me and scare me into avoiding my future? Well, I decided to have a nice hot detox bath to help clear my head of all these fears and get my game face on for the future. As soon as I got into the bath I began to cry. The rest of my evening was spent asking for guidance and letting tears fall from my eyes. I had not felt more raw, or true in months than I did at that moment. It is amazing how sometimes a good, hard, raw cry can bring so much clarity.

Since that night two weeks ago I have had many of nights like that of the new moon night. What is different now is  that I have started listening to my heart more and I have started receiving answers and direction about my future. It has been an intense two weeks and I know there is a lot more intensity to come. But the biggest thing that has become clear to me over this time is that I was not fearful about were my future was going but about how I was going to get there, I now realize you do not just leap top the top of a mountain but work your way up to that magnificent view at the top.  Around the time I started to become fearful I was getting very clear messages in all forms daily to become more raw, and real with exposing myself, my purpose, and every aspect of my life; at that time I was not ready to do that, to take that next step towards my future so I started to listen to my ego's fearful reasoning on not doing so.

 Does this mean that I no longer have any fear or that my ego has disappeared...no, all it means is that my heart is now running the show and I intend to set it free and let it be exactly what it is at all times...no matter what!

 After running scared for the last little bit I can finally say that I am finally ready to take that next step towards my future. I do not know exactly what is in my future but I know that I am going to be raw, real, and honest with myself, my purpose and all those around me.

Beautiful Beings are Found in Mindfulness and Presence

A silent run in afternoon sun beams.

I have always found love in silence and comfort in its presence. I often crave silence to just be with me and my thoughts, I experience it with open arms and open an heart. I enjoyed meditation, yoga, and other activities that involved basking in silence. But was I truly getting the full benefits and incorporating silence into my life and being?

Lately I got to thinking about silence and how we experience it in our everyday lives. How we experience our thoughts, our feelings, and just our being as a whole. Do we allow ourselves to full heartedly experience everything that we are, that we feel, that we think? Or do we numb ourselves, choke down our anxiety, and desensitize ourselves?

An organic meal I prepared & ate in silence.

With technology and other modern day developments these days it is very possible to not be alone even if we are physically alone. We are able to numb, to an extent, whatever feelings we are experiencing in a given moment by picking up our cell phone to go on pintrest/facebook, go for a drink in a near by bar, listen to crazy uppy music, grab some easy to go food that we do not have to sit down to eat, read a book while we are eating alone at a restaurant or surf the net for some funny videos. All these things are great to a point, but often we turn to these things to numb a feelings of; anxiety, fear, anger, sadness, resentment, and others. All these modern day developments have hindered our ability to cope and just experience our emotions for what they are.

As of late I have been watching myself and take note of my feelings and what I was doing when I experienced them. As I did this I started to notice three major themes; one I ate my feelings away a lot of the time (even if i was just feeling bored), two I used music to tune out my thoughts and emotions during times of intense emotion, and three I often picked up my phone to surf the net when I was alone and feeling anxious about being alone. I was doing a whole lot of numbing myself and not experiencing my full power of mindfulness and emotion. I was not being present with myself, I was practicing drifting into other worlds during every part of my day except when I was meditating or practicing yoga.

This is when I decided to challenge myself to be more present; to experience every emotion I was feeling at every moment, to be mindful of my being and others, to not numb but live in every thought and feeling no matter if it was good or bad, to not ignore but embrace everything for what it is. It started slowly, walking to and from places without listening to music or looking at my phone to surf or text so that I could be mindful about what was going on around me. I eased into eating, when alone, while having no distractions of music/email/cell phone/ tv/ etc. Then I started taking transit while not looking at my phone, reading a book, listening to music, or having a phone conversation; which for me sometimes can stir up a lot of anxiety because I sometimes do not have a personal bubble during my trip.

An amazing view I noticed waiting
for transit.

Even though I have a journey ahead of me until I am more present in every situation and am living more truly mindful in my waking moments I can already see the benefit. I am more aware of my feelings and thoughts, more aware than I have ever been. Until recently when I was asked how I was doing I would often say; fine, good, or meh, all because most days I actually did not know how I was doing or what I was feeling. Now most days I can say not only how I am actually doing but also how I am truly feeling. I am using words like feeling "off", "down", or "out of sorts" less and less. I am learning where my feelings are coming from most of the time, and I am also learning how to cope with them without numbing myself or relaying on technology. My senses have become more awaken, colours are brighter, smells are stronger, and things feel different to touch. I am finally starting to truly experiencing most of my life for what it is not what I want it to be, think it should be, or make it to be, I am experiencing it for what it truly is.

When we unplug and open ourselves to the world around us we start to see things as they truly are. Good or bad we see life as it is, we see ourselves as we are not who we should be, and we feel true emotion without fear. We open doors for ourselves for true healing, growth, self knowledge, and true love. Try taking simple steps to just being with yourself and experiencing your true thoughts, feelings, and being. Start with a walk with no distractions, or eating meals with no distractions then move on to more from there. Watch your senses, your heart open and bloom into that beautiful being that has always been there but you have unknowingly been hiding from yourself and the world.

Sunset silence enjoyed by me and my love <3

Honestly Let's Break Open the Bottle of Truth

As I sit here in silence with only the sound of the rain beating down outside and the thunder in the distance I feel more open and more true than I have in weeks. I feel a sense of calmness, stillness, peace, and above all openness. Like waves of the ocean washing over me my senses have become heightened and I have become more aware of all that is around me in the last few days; colours, sounds, people, animals, air, earth, and everything unseen. An awakening has sprang forth the last few days with the changing of the seasons, summer to fall, and I could not feel more at ease with it all.

You may or may not have noticed my absence the last month or so. Less FB posts, no blogging, and friends and family have received far and few calls/emails/texts. I will admit it was partly because I was busy, but mostly because I was feeling blocked and retreating deep within myself. It is not very often that I become so blocked for long periods of time, or rather it has been very uncommon for a while, none the less it happened.

Some times we can control becoming blocked by the people we surround ourselves with, the type of job and living conditions we are in, the food we eat, the activities we choose, and any other conscious choice we make day to day. Other times blockage in our life comes and we do not even notice it at first, this is the type that is harder to control. Often we when do not realize we are becoming blocked it is because we are not being true to ourselves and others around us and this was what was exactly what was happening with me. I will not bore you with the details but I will tell you it had to do with; my feelings around not having a job, making friends in Vancouver, my living situation and my eating habits. Not being true to myself and others around me about these four major things lead me to start just moving through my daily life on auto pilot and blocking myself off to others and myself, that is until recently!

So, you may be wondering if you don't know your subconsciously blocking yourself, and your acquiring blocks in life, how do you know whats going on? How do you know your becoming blocked? Well let me tell you; you hit a WALL!! One day or maybe many days or weeks, you wake up and go through your day wondering why this and why that, telling little white lies (or big ones) to yourself and others (yes white lies are still lies and no good), then you go through the many to do lists in your head, and to top it off all you feel is nothing; no happiness, sadness, joy, nothing about it all...you may have periods of time were moments bring you happiness, sadness or joy but in your over all day it is blank. Oh and did I mention your tired all the time and very grouchy and short with people including yourself!

So what do you do about all of this? How do you unblock yourself? How do you move past all of this and get some sense and feeling back? Let me tell you!!!

First thing is first- be HONEST with yourself!!! It's okay if you are not ready to be honest with others right now but it is really important to start being honest with yourself. A little "white lie" is still a lie and no matter what you think they are still hurtful and unhealthily. If you hate your job acknowledge it, if your down in the dumps one day say it, if you wish you had purple hair because blonde is so not you ACKNOWLEDGE IT!!! Honestly is the best remedy, it not only shows that you love yourself enough to get real with you but it also gives you a clear view of what can/is/could be bothering you in your life. Honesty with your self is the first step then you can move on to other people when your read. It was only a few days ago I started talking openly with people in my life about what was going on with me!

Next step is to become comfortable. This step is still something I need to remind myself of from time to time, and you may need to as well. Getting comfortable does not mean getting into a comfy situation in your life, what it does mean is that anything that comes your way that brings up negative feelings, or even positive ones, you get comfy and sit with it. This is actually a huge piece of acknowledgement as well because you need to acknowledge the situation and then be able to just be okay with it. What helps me get comfy with things in my life, feelings and situations alike, is knowing that nothing is permeant, if you do not like something right now in your life it has the ability to change in a second and if we just get comfy and acknowledge the situation nature takes its course and the change opens up many doors for us.

My topsy turvy cuddle buddy!!!

Listen to yourself!!! You know yourself better than anyone else and your body and heart will tell you exactly what you need and when. Maybe you are blocked because you have been spreading yourself too thin, or working too hard; I bet if you listened to your body it would tell you to take a break and chill out in silence or nap for a bit! Just be careful not to give into your ego's thoughts and listen to them as it will continue to keep you off track and blocked! Best way to make sure you are listening to your body/heart is if it feels good do it, if you get negative feelings doing it then it is your ego speaking. Also if you the thought begins with I should do this, if I do not do this then blank will happen, or if it is on someone else's to do list stop and re-listen!!! When acknowledge and do exactly what our body and heart need/want us to do it sets us up for success later on down the road, and it also can change our out look on a situation or even our life at that given moment. I recently spent a whole day lounging in my pj's drinking tea and cuddling with my furbaby because thats what my heart and body needed.

Last but definitely not least...get moving outside!!!! No matter what time of year it is being outside invokes all of your senses if you give it the time of day to do so. When we pay attention to our senses we have the ability to clear up blocks and do healing where needed. Do this undistracted with no music blaring in your ears, when we listen to music as healing as it can be, we shut off or weaken our other senses, and when your moving outside the point is to heighten and invoke as many senses as possible. Moving outside is the best way to do this but if your body needs rest because of being over worked simply grabbing a book or cup of tea and sitting outside does the trick just as well if thats what is needed, or simply try going for a short slow walk somewhere in nature. If you are unable to go outside for whatever reasons, studies have shown, and I have also used this method, that looking at a picture of nature and visualizing yourself out in it works as well! I keep pictures of trails I love and different parts of nature in my phone and if I am on a long shift I sit down for a few minutes to look at the pictures before closing my eyes and visualizing myself out in it running, walking, meditating, or sitting with a giant cup of tea!!!

Waking up and becoming unblocked can be a long process or a short one, it varies from person to person and depends on the situation. Becoming unblocked after a long period of time however is the most amazing, uplifting, sensory over loading feeling ever! I encourage you all to take a good look at your life and yourself and unblock any areas that need to be, it could change your whole life!