Answers From a Stranger

With everything that has been going on lately I must say it has not been easy. There have been a lot of things that have come up that I am surprised have either resurfaced or even come up at all, but then again thats usually how it works. I have had up days and I have had down days. In the end all I could do was experience the feelings that were coming up and ground to get through them.

Since coming back this, what feels like, emotional roller coster has worn me out. As I said before the only way it seems like I have been getting through it is by grounding and feeling everything that has been coming up. It has been though. I have been exhausted, edgy, and feeling out of sorts. It was really starting to bug me that I could not figure out what exactly was making me feel so emotional as I have moved and left in the past and it has never been like that. I knew deep in my heart that moving to Vancouver was the right path, I knew quitting my job/field was what I needed to do, so what was going on?!

After spending an entire night, literally all night, sleeping and resting my systems from everything I decided finally to ask my guides and higher self during meditation what was going on (how I did not think about this before is beyond me). While meditating during one of my early morning meditations I asked repeatedly for an answer through out the meditation or some sort of sign, nothing came. I came out of my meditation a little disheartened and started my day still asking for some kind of answer. Lunch time came and I decided to go get a tea from my favourite little cafe in town. While waiting one of the barista's that knows me well from coming in all the time started to talk to me. Some how the topic of me moving to Vancouver came up and he started talking about how beautiful it was and everything else, I agreed. Then he went on to say that leaving sometime's is hard though because we focus on this will be the last time I will do this and that and the other, and we focus on the people/places that will be left behind. I again agreed with him got my tea and left.

A Card I Pulled After This Experience

While walking back to work I looked around me at the trees, people, and cars passing by and realized the conversation I had just had was the answer that I had been looking for. I was so caught up on the fact that I was leaving all this behind that I was actually grieving it like you would someone that passed away. I was forgetting about the fact that nothing will ever replace or take away the memories that I have here, and those memories are only memories, no matter if I stayed here the rest of my life I would not be able to remake them. I was forgetting all that I would carry with me from this place, as it has made me who I am. This made me feel more relieved and better than I had felt in the last two weeks. It was then I knew I was still going to have these feelings come up and would still need to feel and ground through them but I could also remind myself of all that will come with me to create even more amazing memories in the future.

Whenever we ask of guidance or help or are seeking answers in someway, there is this expectation that it is going to be instantaneous, but the guidance we seek comes to us when we are willing and ready to hear it and not a moment before. The answers we seek may come to us in a form we never thought of like from a stranger or a book. The help we request is always there you just need to be patient and willing to receive it . The universe gives us everything we need if we are open, at the right time, and if we ask for it.

Yumo Recipes! Food You Will Become Addicted To!

Who is ready for some yummy yummy yummy treats??!!! I know I am! Here are two of my fav recipes right now. One I was making once a week when I was doing my sugar detox for a little treat the second is one of my favourite things to make for supper right now!

Coconut Candy Crack

1 cup coconut oil

1/4 cup honey ( or sweetener of choice I used honey the first time and steevia afterwards) 

can add more if you want it sweeter 

4 Tbsp of Cacao, note not coco cacao as cacao is the raw unrefined chocolate 

that is actually good for you

1 handful of chopped nuts of choice (I used cashews and almonds)

1 handful of coconut shredded

Optional 1 handful of dried gogi berries

Instructions
1. Melt coconut oil in a heavy pot on the stove. When oil is fully melted add in sweetener and cacao then stir!

2. Remove pot from the stove and add in nuts, coconut, and berries.

3. Pour into a sallow pan about 9x9 covered in tin foil then stick in the freezer for about 45 minutes.

4. Pig out! Seriously! Just make sure to keep this in the freezer in between pig outs as coconut oil melts at room temp!

Bok Choy Stir Fry (for two)

10 oz of bok choy 

1 1/2 cups chopped mushrooms of choice (I like shitaki)

2 Tbsp of Tamari or Soya Sauce if you aren't gfree

1 Tbsp of maple syrup or honey

2 cloves of garlic chopped

chunk of coconut oil

prepared grains to serve over, 1 cup per person

1 Tbsp of hemp hearts, or if you do not have them sesame seeds

Instructions

1. Wash bok choy and mushrooms and dry. After they are dry chop both into bite sized pieces.

2. Heat chunk of coconut oil in large heavy sauce pan over med-low heat. Once oil is melted add in maple syrup, garlic and 1 Tbsp of tamari. Let mingle.

3. Once mingling has occurred add in mushrooms and let them soak up and brown in sauce. Once they are brown and have soaked up about half the sauce add in the bok choy and let it wilt.

4. Once bok choy is wilted add in the last tbsp of tamari turn off the stove, cover and let sit for 3-4 minutes then add in hemp hearts.

5. Serve over grain of choice, I have used quinoa and rice both are great, and enjoy!!!