Answers From a Stranger

With everything that has been going on lately I must say it has not been easy. There have been a lot of things that have come up that I am surprised have either resurfaced or even come up at all, but then again thats usually how it works. I have had up days and I have had down days. In the end all I could do was experience the feelings that were coming up and ground to get through them.

Since coming back this, what feels like, emotional roller coster has worn me out. As I said before the only way it seems like I have been getting through it is by grounding and feeling everything that has been coming up. It has been though. I have been exhausted, edgy, and feeling out of sorts. It was really starting to bug me that I could not figure out what exactly was making me feel so emotional as I have moved and left in the past and it has never been like that. I knew deep in my heart that moving to Vancouver was the right path, I knew quitting my job/field was what I needed to do, so what was going on?!

After spending an entire night, literally all night, sleeping and resting my systems from everything I decided finally to ask my guides and higher self during meditation what was going on (how I did not think about this before is beyond me). While meditating during one of my early morning meditations I asked repeatedly for an answer through out the meditation or some sort of sign, nothing came. I came out of my meditation a little disheartened and started my day still asking for some kind of answer. Lunch time came and I decided to go get a tea from my favourite little cafe in town. While waiting one of the barista's that knows me well from coming in all the time started to talk to me. Some how the topic of me moving to Vancouver came up and he started talking about how beautiful it was and everything else, I agreed. Then he went on to say that leaving sometime's is hard though because we focus on this will be the last time I will do this and that and the other, and we focus on the people/places that will be left behind. I again agreed with him got my tea and left.

A Card I Pulled After This Experience

While walking back to work I looked around me at the trees, people, and cars passing by and realized the conversation I had just had was the answer that I had been looking for. I was so caught up on the fact that I was leaving all this behind that I was actually grieving it like you would someone that passed away. I was forgetting about the fact that nothing will ever replace or take away the memories that I have here, and those memories are only memories, no matter if I stayed here the rest of my life I would not be able to remake them. I was forgetting all that I would carry with me from this place, as it has made me who I am. This made me feel more relieved and better than I had felt in the last two weeks. It was then I knew I was still going to have these feelings come up and would still need to feel and ground through them but I could also remind myself of all that will come with me to create even more amazing memories in the future.

Whenever we ask of guidance or help or are seeking answers in someway, there is this expectation that it is going to be instantaneous, but the guidance we seek comes to us when we are willing and ready to hear it and not a moment before. The answers we seek may come to us in a form we never thought of like from a stranger or a book. The help we request is always there you just need to be patient and willing to receive it . The universe gives us everything we need if we are open, at the right time, and if we ask for it.